Saturday, November 29, 2008;6:36 PM
我在想你.. 
Date: 29.11.o8Time: 6.36pm
so long since i last blogged. quite busy for accs common test nowadaes. now its finalli over.. nid to studi for auditing test ler.. im also kip audi-ing.. use ah lai de acc.. cos she saes she don wan it animore.. so i used it.. found a cpl n married. i cant predict if he will brk.. but i decided not to take it so seriously.. cos i don wanna get hurt animore.. haas. but hes a nice guy. oni 14 yrs old. LOL.
i should ask.. how come ppl in this world love to gossip? is it so nice to gossip around? does gossip help u in anything? aiya.. don sae ler.. lols. waste my time n effort saeing wads happening.. lols.
last nite saw mushroom n her bf. actualli i dunno de. when e time i reached west mall, she sms-ed me.. n sae she is also at west mall.. den i called her.. finalli i saw her! haa. tok a while den off for dinner ler..
sae till dinner.. i still haven eaten yet.. gonna go hungry till bout 10 plus.. i did not eat much jus now also.. sometimes im realli angry for myself.. i cant do things well.. now also got ppl sae me alradi.. make me feel even useless.. im so stupid.. i can see everyone hates me.. should i live without frens n families? i dunoo.. sometimes my mum stress me.. she sometimes also saes she wanna die.. i also feel like dying.. so i will not have worries animore.. but.. i choose to live on.. (:
last time, i even tried sooo hard to kill myself.. but i din die. i cut my wrist.. drink beer like no body business. who will noe wad im sufferin from? no one will understand n noe..
last time, i even tried sooo hard to kill myself.. but i din die. i cut my wrist.. drink beer like no body business. who will noe wad im sufferin from? no one will understand n noe..
Tuesday, November 18, 2008;4:22 PM
我在想你..
Date:18.11.o8Time: 4.46pm
hi (: yest got lab lesson. and we played a game called business challenge.. its kinda same like monopoly.. fun (: when we finished our game, i got e most profit among my group.. happi.. (: yest got my format test bk alr. 24/30. im so happi.. i nv thought that i can do quite well.. todae ended early n went to amk k box with ah lai. sang lotsa songs. we oni sing for 2 hours plus. haas. todae jus taken another mock test on workings.. hope i can do well.. though im still bit blur.. having e whole cash flow mock test on fri.. alright.. nothing to sae ler.. take cares. (: here are some pictures. (:
me n ah laii (:
business challenge game..
im happi with my results.. hope i can do betta :D
ah laii ~ x:
my dear la0po. haas.. (:
Sunday, November 16, 2008;7:30 PM
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LIFE IS SUCH A P-A-I-N.Friday, November 14, 2008;3:45 PM
我在想你..
Date: 14.11.o8Time: 3.46pm
so long i lasted blogged. haas. now at hme nothing to do. watchin 4.30pm show later. todae no sch. so happi. but i did not sleep enough yet. ): well, now im hooked on to 7pm show, ten brothers! so cute n interesting. (: having common test soon. dunno whether can cope well not. now i still don have e mood to study. but now in class, im trying very hard to do work, memorise auditing notes. but im still lazy to do accs. frens in class alwaes help me a lot. thanks frens (: yoketing, kay, shanwei n all. teach me all e accs work though im still very blur. but i at least noe a bit. if i can memorise more, it will be betta. (: my wish now is jus to pass all my subjects n get my cert.. i think i gonna work after graduating.. i don have plans for now.. but i think i will still work.. dunno y don feel like audi-ing ler. lols. daddy don kinda feel well nowadaes. but hes okae now ler. thanks god (: yest went simei ite for career fair. took bus back to bishan mrt. went guardian to buy med for daddy. but oni left last 2. den i went to watsons to buy another 2 bottles. watsons med is cheaper by 30 cents. cos daddy not feelin well. i help him to buy med for him. daddy next appointment with doctor is next yr march. ._. so long. hope daddy is feel betta. daddy n mum goin to opera at woodlands later. (: alright nth to blog. (:
Sunday, November 2, 2008;6:04 PM
我在想你..
Date: 2.11.o8Time: 6.05pm
how do you all think of me? all of u noe mi for so long ler.. u should noe wad kinda person i am.. right? is it,
1. Stubborn?
2. Stupid?
3. Crazy?
4. unhelpful?
5. cant even do a thing properly?
6. useless bum?
so kinda attitude do i have? i think my attitude is all of e above.. i may have negative thinking. but im realli like this. wanna help my fren to paint. den she saes. i cant let u paint here. is as if i stupid. cant paint dere is like im goin to spoil her wall. so i don help they all paint. later i scare i spoil her wall. so now i do blogging. my blog is jus a place for me to sae out all my unhappiness.. so its not intersting to look at all. this blog is my oni diary. no one will be my diary.. even if dere is, dey will not listen to my problems foreva. but oni a short while. but i will still like to thank you for listening to me.. my problems are all boring.. so i guess not even a person will let me share with dem my problems. im a helpless gal. useless gal. stupid gal. wad else can i be? nothing. ppl can work, ppl can study. no matter wad other ppl do will alwaes got wad dey wan. but for me, i don think i can achieve my dream. like oni jus a simple licence for car, i cant even do it. i got fear in doin it. other ppl will alwaes be a successful young woman, young adult. but i think for me, i got no future. there is no light in my future. its dark. so dark. life is like tat. ups n down. but for me, its alwaes down. ):
